‘hindsight is 20/20.’
*clears throat* general public, ‘spies’, people, and press…. i was in dumb love with a dumbass.
i say he’s a dumbass for the simple fact that a lot of shit he did was …well..dumb. and he has an ass. so..dumb..ass..get it? [aigh, that was wack, i know lol]
how, some ask, did i get there? dunno. liked him a lot, mostly for who he was…not what he could ‘buy’ or if he called me pretty. i dug him. him and all of his silly flaws, insecurities, and personas. i loved that he told me the truth (about most things) and respected me even when i did things that would make one question. i loved that i could be myself around him and he did as well. most of all, i loved that i thought i had a friend in this beautiful creature. crazy, huh?
yup. it all made me change and grow up. i’m actually quite proud of myself. for the longest i just wanted to extend myself to make it work, but it’s not about that anymore. he made me find the line i thought i didn’t have…ya know, the one that symbolizes what you will and won’t take. i take a lot bc i’m adaptable. i think he knew that lol.
anyhoo, long story short, i deserve some damn brownie points. it’s been some rough days, some horrible nights, and a lot of reflection. yada yada…i’m good. ‘love’ doesn’t do what was done….and i finally committ to not wasting my love on those who show me they don’t want it.
</yet another relationship blog>
promise, the next one will be completely irrelevant to this bullshit :) lol
